There is a sense of ease in not knowing, simply letting go and letting the cards fall where they may. I should be eating tropical acai bowls and basking in the Balinese sun right now, but for whatever reason, things didn’t go as planned. I spent quite a few, stressful and anxiously filled hours on Friday debating if I should go, or stay…a question I ask myself, in one variation or another, quite too often. And while I am disappointed that months of planning and excitement were stopped short because of a small, but imperative, oversight…well, I suppose that’s simply how the cards fell.
I spent much of my early 20s trying to plan my life down to the smallest detail. I remember, an old boyfriend told me that the older I would get, the more I would realize how little control I actually had over my life. I don’t believe that entirely to be true but there has been a significant shift in my compulsive planning and perhaps my attitude, too. Needless to say, I am here and not in South East Asia and I feel unexpectedly at ease with my decision. There is something refreshing about simply not knowing. Don’t you think? So, here’s to the wonderful unknown because, frankly that’s all we can be certain about…
Photos by Jennifer Coffey Photography
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